I know, I know - it's been ages. This always happens when I get a new lease on blogging.. I give up before I even start. I'm a bit of a perfectionist, so if my life isn't going exactly how I want it to I find it hard to share it on the blog. That's not being very authentic though so I need to get over that mentality. Nobody wants to read about someone's perfect life anyway, right?
So what's been happening? Well.. since we last spoke in December I stopped seeing the guy I was planning on talking about in a follow up post. Hence why I went silent for a bit. We were only dating for a month and a bit before things started getting too serious for him, and if I'm honest, not serious enough for me. This guy was quite a few years older than me, fresh out of a marriage with two young kids in toe, and as much as I enjoyed his company (he had such a carefree attitude to life which was refreshing to be swept up in), I wasn't interested in being someone's rebound. It was fun while it lasted though, and hey - at least I got my own rebound out of the way!
Since then I have been on a few dates that didn't really lead to anywhere, but they got me out of my comfort zone and opened my eyes to new situations and ways of thinking. Some of my friends began to suggest that I give up on dating and just wait for the right guy to come to me. As ideal as that would be though, I actually quite enjoy the excitement and challenges that come with dating and putting yourself out there.
At present I am dating an incredibly charming and handsome guy (who is around my age and without any baggage - yay!), ties my stomach up with butterflies, infuriates me on the daily, yet somehow always leaves me wanting more. Hopefully I will be able to share more about this one soon as I can genuinely see myself falling for this guy if he gives me half a chance. It's only been a month so far and I can tell that he's still playing it safe, but I can also tell that he likes me a lot and is stepping out of his comfort zone as he explores his feelings for me.
Which brings me to my own comfort zone and what I currently want in life.. and how this has changed since getting out of my long term relationship last June.
To cut a long story short, I no longer feel the need to place time limits on my happiness. I no longer care when, or if, I even get married. I don't have a set age for when I want to start trying for a family. It doesn't bother me that I haven't travelled overseas yet and I couldn't care less when this ends up happening. I don't need to own a house to feel settled, and I don't need a 9-5 job to feel like a contributing member of society. The only thing I want in life is to experience the pleasure of both giving and receiving genuine, honest, heartfelt love and compassion. Whether it be romantic love, friendship, the love you have for a hobby, the love you give and receive from strangers. As long as my life is focused on love - I am happy - and if I'm happy then everything else will surely fall into place when and as it is meant to. It's quite a liberating way of looking at things and I encourage you all to do the same. :)