Cluckiness. The struggle is real people.
I can't pinpoint the exact moment when I first started yearning to have a baby of my own, but I do know that by the age of 23 there was a noticeable ache inside my chest whenever the topic of children came up or I'd see a newborn baby or small child out and about.
This ache that I'm describing has grown much more profound since then, and it's a feeling that continues to grow stronger within me each and every day.
Some days I will be so overcome with cluckiness that it takes everything inside me just to keep myself from going to the shops and stockpiling on future baby clothes. It also takes a great deal of restraint to keep myself from constantly talking about babies with my partner, and as a result I often end up venting to my friends and family instead.
There is nothing stopping us from having a baby physically (that we know of), we are just simply not in a position to be starting a family just yet.
Being sensible isn't always easy though. It takes an awful lot of patience and a hell of a lot of strength, and the feeling of wanting a baby isn't something that I can just sweep under the rug.
I've always felt that I was ten steps ahead of my partner in terms of being ready for the next step in our future together, but then I'm sure he's always felt that I have been a little bit ahead of myself as well.
I am grateful that he keeps me grounded and tries to keep me focused in the present. I am a better person because of him and would never want to be without him.
Still, I am wholeheartedly ready to take the next step and find it hard to calm my heart in the mean time.
Any suggestions for keeping my mind off the future?