Monday, 22 August 2016

Life Update: Moving Back to Brisbane.

Where do I start? It feels like forever since I last wrote an update post and so much has happened since I last blogged. I guess I'll just start with the biggest news, and that's that I'm moving back to Brisbane!

The last time I gave an update I mentioned that I was stuck in limbo waiting for a transfer with my work. Basically I refused to move back down until I had a job lined up. Finding a transfer, however, was a lot more difficult than I had anticipated. I basically had to wait until a new store was being opened and apply for it just as anyone else would. Fortunately, as I flew down for the day just to attend the interview, I was offered the job on the spot. I guess I proved to them how I commited I am. There are no words that can describe just how relieved I felt to receive this news. It felt like the weight of the world had been lifted from my shoulders. 

Actually, on the way home from the interview I was blasting the radio when the following song came on:

Someone turned the pressure on
I called your name and you were gone
And I was trapped like a prisoner in this lonely town
I'm gonna let things slide, until the pressure comes down

The timing of the song was perfect, and these lyrics perfectly summed up how I have been feeling over the past few months since the break up. It's pretty safe to say I had a monumental tear session on the drive home after this song came on.

I still have a lot more hurdles to face in the next few months, but I finally feel like I can breathe again, and that feels incredible. I have been accepted for the same position and hours that I am working currently, but my goal by the end of the year is to be working as close to full time hours as possible so that I can move out on my own. In the mean time, I still need to move down and settle back into my Mum's place.

I'm not going to lie, it feels pretty embarrassing to be moving back home at 27 years of age, but hey.. it's not like I chose to be put in this position. I'm just super grateful that I have family support to help me through this transition in my life. I'm also super grateful for my amazing besties. When I needed to fly down for the interview with hardly any notice, my best friend Katie picked me up from the airport at midnight and even gave me a haircut before my big interview (see photo above). It feels really weird to have a full fringe again, and the maintenance is crazy, but I'm so happy with how it looks. With a forehead like mine a fringe is definitely necessary if I don't want to look like a total egg head. But back to my friends though.. in a couple of weeks, once my two weeks notice is up, my other two besties Anita and Jaana are flying up from the Gold Coast to spend a few days with me before the three of us and the dogs make the 18 hour drive back down to Brisbane together. The plan is to do 9 hours one day, stay at a pet friendly motel overnight, then do the other 9 hours the following day. I'm actually really excited for the road trip and have my music playlist all ready to go.

Speaking of the dogs.. A couple of weeks ago Ellie, my eldest dog, decided to hurt her back. I have no idea how it happened as I was at work at the time, but pretty much when a dachshund hurts their back you immediately assume the worst. Fortunately, three vet trips and a lot of money later, Ellie was deemed to be on the mend and was prescribed crate rest and medicine over surgery. I will be forever grateful that her situation wasn't any worse, and once I get my own place I will be making it so darn dachshund friendly that visitors will wonder if a child lives there instead of an adult. Think of a super low bed frame and couch, and bar stools at the kitchen island rather than a table. Good thing I want my new place to be super minimalist.

So to sum up, with all things going to plan, I should be back in Brisbane on the 6th or 7th of September. I will be starting my new position on the 19th, which gives me just over a week to settle in, unpack, etc. I am really looking forward to catching up with old friends and hopefully making some new ones. I have even already created a Springfield Vegans Facebook group so that I can start having meet ups with fellow Vegans in the area.

Thanks so much to everyone who has been offering me words of support via this blog, instagram, emails, etc. You guys are amazing. Hopefully things will be a little more positive on this blog from this point onward. I'll make sure to write an update post once I'm back and settled in. :)

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Tuesday, 12 July 2016

Creamy Vegan Pasta Bake.

One of the biggest things I've missed since going Vegan is creamy, cheesy pasta dishes. It's not that Vegan creams and cheeses aren't available, it's just that they can be quite expensive and difficult to get your hands on, and to be perfectly honest, they're not really all that healthy. Thankfully I was given 'The Make Ahead Vegan Cookbook' for Christmas which features a scrummy Tetrazzini style pasta dish recipe. Basically this dish has all the taste, but none of the ingredients of cream or cheese. I of course ended up adding my own special touches to the dish, and it is this adapted recipe that I will be sharing with you today. :)


1 cup cashews
coconut or olive oil
250 grams spaghetti pasta, or pasta of your choosing
1 1/4 cups soy or almond milk, unsweetened
1 tbsp nutritional yeast flakes
1 tsp garlic powder
1 tsp salt
1 tsp cracked black pepper
sundried tomatoes


1. Cover the cashews with water and soak in the fridge overnight.
2. Pop your pasta onto boil and cook until al dente. You can also stick your broccolini into the same pan as your pasta to cook for a few minutes.
3. While your pasta and broccolini is cooking, preheat your oven to 180 degrees celcius (350 degrees fahrenheit), and lightly grease an oven proof dish with an oil of your choosing.
4. Drain your soaked cashews and place these into a food processor. Give them a quick blitz.
5. Add all remaining ingredients (except sundried tomatoes) to the food processor and blitz until you have a smooth creamy consistency.
6. Once the pasta and broccolini is cooked, drain, add back to the saucepan, and cover with the creamy sauce. Throw your sundried tomatoes in at this point as well. Stir through until the pasta is completely covered.
7. Add creamy pasta to the pre-greased oven proof dish, sprinkle with extra cracked black pepper, cover with alfoil, and cook at the preset temperature for 20-30 minutes.

Serves 4.

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Tuesday, 21 June 2016

Seven Years, Five Months + Four Days.

Well, it's official. Earlier this month, on Saturday the 4th of June to be precise, I ended my seven and a half year relationship with 'B'. It was a long time coming, and when I say that "I" ended it, it was definitely more of mutual agreement, but it was still the most difficult thing I have ever had to do in my life.

I won't go into too much detail in this blog post as the whole situation is still very raw for me, but I will definitely do more posts on the subject once I've had time to reflect and learn from the whole experience.

Presently I am going through the five stages of grief, in no particular order. Most of the time the stages seem to overlap. Currently I am feeling a little bit of anger but not too much. I feel like I could get quite angry in the upcoming months though. I was going through a stage of denial, and still am a little bit, but at the same time I feel like I accepted the situation from the moment the relationship ended.

Basically I just feel like I need to find myself again. I'm going to be honest though, don't be surprised if I'm in a new relationship by the end of the year. There are definitely things about myself that I need to work on, but being a romantic soul isn't one of them. I feel like I was put on this earth to love, be loved, and to spread positivity. I haven't felt truly "loved" in a really long time. I deserve to experience love again.

At the moment I am still living in Townsville in the same house as B. I have been trying to apply for a transfer through work but it is proving a little difficult at the moment. As soon as the transfer goes through however I will be moving back home to Brisbane to live with my family until I can get back on my feet. Fortunately B and I have been very civil with each other and he will be helping me out with the cost of moving and giving me my fair share in terms of furniture, etc. I am very grateful for this as I have heard some shocking stories from others about their less than civil breakups. As for the dogs, they will be coming with me. It breaks my heart to take them both away from their "daddy" but I couldn't bare to separate them from one another, so it only makes sense that they would both come with me. Hopefully he can come to visit them ocassionally when he's down in Brisbane to visit friends and family.

Hmmm.. what else?

Aside from the obvious emotional turmoil we've both been going through, it has been really difficult for me to come to terms with the fact that I have to leave this home and "family" that we have made for ourselves. Security is a really big deal to me and now I feel like everything is up in the air. Sure, I get to go and live with my family for a while, but given that my family already has two dogs, that isn't going to last forever with four crazy mutts in the house. So unless I can finally find full time work, I'll most likely need to move in with a housemate. The thought of doing this, especially with two dogs in toe, is incredibly daunting to me and gives me a huge amount of anxiety. I've been trying not to think too far ahead for this reason. So my plan is to wait until I hear about a transfer, then pack everything up and arrange to move as soon as possible. I don't see the point of packing anything until I know when I'm moving as seeing clutter and boxes around me only makes me feel more anxious. I'm hoping that if the universe can time things for me perfectly I'll be moving back to Brisbane in the last week of July. Two of my besties have offered to fly up and make the 18 hour drive back down with me and the dogs, which would be absolutely perfect!

I guess I will leave things there for now. If you have any questions feel free to leave them in the comments, or send me an email to and I will get back to you as soon as I can. If any of you have been through a breakup in recent years and have a positive story to tell about what happened afterwards I would LOVE to hear from you. I really need to hear stories like those right now. :)

P.s. If you could keep breakup related comments off my social media for the time being that would be wonderful. I haven't shared the news with everyone yet and would rather they hear it from me personally. x

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