Saturday, 30 May 2015

26 while 26.

In keeping with my annual birthday tradition, here is a list of 26 things I would like to accomplish in the next 12 months:

1. Continue to grow my hair out. I still want long hippy hair by the time B and I get married.

2. Learn how to french braid. Could come in handy for my wedding hairstyle, ha!

3. Whilst we're on the topic of hair, please don't dye your hair back dark again. It looks really good natural with the random blonde highlights. :)

4. Get a few extra hours at work, or find some other way to make some regular "pocket" money. You're going to have a wedding to save for soon I hope. ;)

5. Keep going to the gym at least 3 times a week. It doesn't matter if you don't reach your goal weight, you just need to stay active and healthy and get your PCOS under control.

6. Find your clean eating niche and learn to embrace it. Whether that be a paleo diet, vegetarian diet, vegan lifestyle, or just eating relatively healthy in general. Find what works for you and makes you feel the happiest.

7. Make sure you still treat yourself on occasion, even if it's more than once a week. You don't need to be super strict with yourself if you are active and healthy most of the time.

8. Take your blog to the next level, as well as your instagram account. Whatever that new level is will be entirely up to you.

9. Become more active in the ASMR community, and work towards giving something back.

10. Finish furnishing/decorating the house. Try to sneak in some pops of colour even if B says no. ;)

11. Either get into a habit of spring cleaning once a week, or hire a cleaner.

12. Make sure that Nala is fully toilet trained, and teach her how to sit/stay.

13. Get Nala desexed.

14. When Christmas time rolls around, make sure to really get into the Christmas spirit and decorate the house like a crazy person.

15. Host some sort of gathering at our house once we get the new couch.

16. Walk the dogs at least every 2nd day.

17. Start wearing make up regularly again.

18. Curl your hair more often. It suits you.

19. Burn candles more often. Why bother having them if you're not going to use them?

20. Don't neglect your friends back home.

21. Go to Magnetic Island.

22. Visit Cairns.

23. Go to Airlie Beach/The Whitsundays.

24. Spend a proper weekend with Anita and Jaana in Mackay.

25. Go back home to visit family and friends in Brisbane, even if B hasn't been given his annual holiday yet.

26. Write a '27 while 27' list.

Wish me luck and we'll see how I went on my birthday next year. :)

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Friday, 29 May 2015

Officially over the hill.

Me a couple of weeks ago. :)

This morning I woke up on my 26th birthday with a feeling I can only describe as 'hope'. Hope that today would be this extra special birthday, and that I would be so preoccupied with super exciting things that I wouldn't have the chance to reflect on my life so far and acknowledge the fact that I am getting older. Within half an hour of waking up however, I found myself feeling irrationally sad and moody, and even started tearing up a bit. The truth is, I actually don't mind getting older at all. In fact, I'm still that young girl that just wants to grow up and get married and be a Mummy.

I know this sounds ridiculous as I'm only 26, but for me birthdays have always been a reminder of how little of what I want has been achieved within a certain amount of time (probably because I insist on writing stupid to-do lists like the one at the end of this post). Up until now though, 25 and under had still felt so young, and so I didn't really allow such thoughts to get to me that much. Waking up this morning though I found myself aching for the next big adventure, and when I wasn't handed it on a silver platter I guess I felt kind of cheated - even though I know the next big adventure is just around the corner.

I'm probably doing a terrible job at explaining how I'm feeling, but I figured I'd let it out here anyway. I'm not even sure if many people read my blog anymore, so this is kind of like writing in a diary for me. Hopefully now that I've gotten this off my chest I will be able to enjoy the rest of my birthday. Today is my day off work so I'm taking this morning to pamper myself (read: washing my hair and shaving my legs!) before going out to choose a gorgeous new dress to wear to my birthday dinner tonight. I also need to bake myself a birthday cake as no one else is going to do that for me now that I'm over the hill (ha!).

Anywho, this wouldn't be a birthday blog post if I didn't include my 25 while 25 list that I wrote up last year and crossed off some of the things I managed to achieve. I know these lists are only setting myself up for disappointment in the year to follow, but I still find them to be a great way to look back on how much I have grown in the past 12 months.

25 while 25

1. Find a second job working in retail (chemist, pet store, clothing store) to support myself as I build up my design business. ✓
Woohoo! Something important that I actually managed to achieve. I may not be working in a pet store or clothing store, but I'm actually glad that I ended up working in a much more fast paced working environment as it makes the days go quicker.

2. Be earning at least $700 per fortnight from my design business alone.
Sadly not by a long shot, hence the job in retail. I almost don't care anymore though as I'm just not that creative of a person. I started my design business to help people where I could, but it's no longer my whole world anymore. It's still a great job to have on the side though, and I find that I enjoy it more now that it's more of a hobby again. :)

3. Get back down to 55kg.
Yeah, no. I'm still about 10kg heavier than I want to be, but I am going to the gym 4 times a week and still eating relatively healthy most of the time. Even if I never reach my goal weight I will still be content with the fact that I am actively making an effort.

4. Buy a new car. ✓
Yes! Another really important thing that I managed to cross off my to-do list! I am so happy with my new car that words can't even describe. :D

5. Get fully comprehensive car insurance. ✓
The day I crossed this item off my list was the day I truly felt like an adult.

6. Continue to grow my hair out. ✓
I'm not sure if my hair is longer now than it was this time last year as I recently had a trim, but generally speaking I've been growing my hair out, yes. :)

7. Reach 500 followers on bloglovin' organically.
Nope. To be fair though, I haven't really been the most active blogger lately now have I?

8. Buy a new, more comfortable, high quality computer chair.
Yeah, not quite. Instead I threw away the back to my original computer chair and now just sit on the base. I simply couldn't justify spending money on another chair that is just going to break in 6 months time.

9. Start making YouTube videos again.
Sadly, no. Something for my next to-do list perhaps?

10. Scan and save old photos from family albums onto the computer.
Whilst I did scan some, I really wish that I had scanned all the rest before moving up here in January.

11. Go to the doctors and ask to be tested for hypothyroid.
I did. Fortunately nothing was wrong with my thyroid, but with starting the testing process we eventually found out about my having PCOS.

12. Start a herb garden.
I wish! Instead I have an entire shelf dedicated to dried herbs in my pantry.

13. Develop any old rolls of film that my Mum still has.
Yet another thing I wish I did before moving to Townsville.

14. Spend 3-4 days without the internet.
Yeah, no.

15. Take a cooking class.
Another thing for my next to-do list.

16. Take photos of Ellie and Lucas at Christmas time.
Yeah, this didn't happen either. We decided to leave Ellie at my Mums place while we went to visit Lucas, as Dad's place doesn't have a fenced backyard and Ellie needs a lot of space to run around.

17. Read 'Dexter's Final Cut' that Mum gave me for Christmas.
Hmmm. I think we've established just how lazy I can be.

18. Sort out the back garden.
Shortly after I wrote this list last year we found out that we were moving to Townsville, so the garden became kind of neglected. Oh well. At least the garden at our new place is perfect. :)

19. Start wearing make up again. You need to put more effort into your appearance.
Considering I still only wear make up when I'm going out somewhere once or twice a fortnight, I'd say this one was probably a fail.

20. Walk Ellie more often.
I still need to work on this. I've neglected Ellie and Nala's walks a little since I started at the gym.

21. Find new blogs to read and start commenting more often.
Yeah, terrible blogger over here!

22. Buy a new, nice fitting, comfy pair of jeans. ✓
I can't remember if I bought my last pair in the last 12 months or not, but I'm pretty sure I did, and they are also pretty darn comfy.

23. Buy a decent video camera. ✓
Ben bought one off his brother that I can use whenever I like. Does that count?

24. Buy an apple product, like an iPhone or a mac laptop.
Ha! This was never going to happen. Maybe one day in the very distant future, but even then I highly doubt it.

25. Create a '26 while 26' list. ✓
I haven't done this yet, but it is on the agenda for tomorrow. :)

Well, I may have only crossed 8 items off last years to-do list, but I'm still pretty happy with what I've achieved. Hopefully these next 12 months will be even better. I'll share my '26 while 26' list with you tomorrow!

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Friday, 22 May 2015

Finding out that I have Polycystic Ovaries (PCOS).

Please excuse the photo I selected for this blog post. It was hard to find something appropriate, so I settled for simple and pretty - something this blog post, and PCOS, is not.

To put it simply, if you don't know what PCOS is, it is basically when you have a whole list of symptoms caused by a hormonal imbalance. The main symptom of course being ovarian cysts. I still don't know a whole lot about PCOS myself, all I know is that I have it (I found out on Monday) and that many of the symptoms I have been experiencing over the past few years can be explained by it. I also know that having PCOS could make it harder for me to have children down the track.

If you know me at all by now, you will know that having children is the most important thing in the world to me. So to be told that there is even the slightest chance that I could have trouble with my fertility was a huge shock to the system. Of course there are plenty of people with PCOS who fall pregnant, but you don't tend to hear about those experiences as often as you hear about those who continuously miscarry or fail to fall pregnant altogether. I am turning twenty-six next week, and before my ultrasound results came back on Monday I had no intention of even trying for a baby until I was at least thirty. This has since changed, and the latest that I want to start trying to have children is now twenty-nine, but even then I feel like I'm pushing it.

So what are my symptoms? Well aside from finding out that my ovaries are basically covered in cysts (not just a few, covered), I have also been experiencing spotting and pain in my ovaries every month around the time of ovulation, horrendous cystic acne on my chin, and gaining a lot of weight around my midsection that has been particularly stubborn and hard to get rid of. Fortunately I don't appear to be experiencing some of the more unsightly PCOS related symptoms (such as male pattern hair growth), and my periods are still very regular and not too heavy at all (which is a great sign for my fertility!). I'm actually very grateful to finally have an answer for my weight gain and acne in particular, because now I can find more successful ways of treating them.

Other than wanting to share what's been going on in my life, I've actually written this post in case any of you are experiencing similar symptoms. Don't feel embarrassed or as though you are a burden by asking your doctor to send you for an ultrasound. The reason I went to my doctor about this in the first place was after reading someone else's blog post on the topic who had similar symptoms to those I did. Sure, it could have just been a coincidence, but in my case it wasn't at all and if I hadn't been proactive I might not have found out until years later when I was actually trying to conceive.

And to those of you who also have PCOS (I know there's a lot of you!), I truly respect you all for being so strong and for doing your best to deal with the cards you have been handed. I'd love to hear some of your positive stories and experiences if you have any. :)

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Friday, 15 May 2015


Reading:  Hardly anything to be honest. Not even blogs at the moment. I just don't have the time or the energy of late.

Watching:  Netflix. I've just finished all 8 seasons of 'That 70s Show' and recently finished the first 2 seasons of 'Orange is the new black' which was absolutely amazing. I don't have time to start another new series at the moment (because let's face it, I'm going to want to watch every episode back to back) so I've temporarily gone back to watching 'Friends' in the background. It's basically a security blanket for me. Oh, and I've also watched 'Fifty Shades of Grey' twice this week since it was released on DVD because I am utterly obsessed.

Listening to:  Some old school John Mayer, the High School Musical + Hairspray soundtracks, and just a bunch of love songs basically.

Smelling:  My new Chloe perfume that my friends Anita and Jaana gave me for my birthday. :)

Thinking about:  Everything I need to do this weekend. Washing clothes, cooking/baking, going to the gym, washing my hair (such a burden lol), going to my friends High Tea, taking the dogs to the Million Paws Walk, going to work, etc. I'm also wondering about some test results that I am waiting to hear back from my doctor about on Monday.

Wishing:  That the chores could do themselves so that I could focus more on this blog, playing the sims, and just generally having fun.

Working on:  Saving up for a weekend trip to Mackay to visit my besties next month. I'm also saving up for when my Mum eventually visits as I want to be able to spoil her while she's up here.

Loving:  That I have already made so many friends since moving up here. :D

Anticipating:  Tomorrow's high tea, the Million Paws Walk (I am equally dreading it though), and my birthday dinner which is only two weeks away!

So what have you been up to lately?

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Sunday, 3 May 2015

Snap Happy Sunday // Meet my new car!

Hey guys! Sorry it's been so long since my last blog post. I've pretty much spent the last two weeks working, being sick with tonsillitis, and trying to sort out a bank loan for my new car. Getting a loan was really difficult for me because I haven't been working in my current job for more than 12 months yet, so my partner B basically had to go in as a guarantor for me in case anything were to go wrong down the track. Fortunately, because B is now a doctor, this meant that I was eligible to get the best interest rate available in Queensland. I'm not even kidding.. it was less than half the interest rate that I was offered initially before they knew about B's job. I have to say, I find it quite ironic that doctors (who earn plenty of money as it is) are offered the lowest interest rate available, while those of us who live paycheck to paycheck have to jump through hoops to pay the highest possible interest rate. Hah! Anyway, moving on..

I have been wanting a new (second hand) car for pretty much the last 5 years. The car I have been driving up until now was the first car I ever bought a little over 6 years ago, and although she was still getting me from A to B, I simply couldn't deal with the fact she didn't have air conditioning. She also didn't have power steering, and the automatic transmission conked out shortly after I bought her, so I've been driving her like a manual ever since. Needless to say it was definitely time for an upgrade, so I started searching the used car sites to get an idea of how much I would need to get a loan for. I was actually planning to wait until the end of the financial year in case I got any of my tax money back, but the second I saw this lilac Suzuki Swift there was absolutely no way that I was waiting. Although she's nine years old she's in absolute perfect condition, and it pretty much feels like I am driving a brand new car. Plus did I mention that her colour is lilac? That's like my all time favourite colour! She even matches my blog design!

I couldn't be more happy about my new car. I've even added a 'dachshund on board' sign to officially make her my own. Oh, and in case you were wondering, I've named her 'Arden'. I'm not sure why but I just really like that name. :)

Sadly, My first little beast 'Celeste' had a date with the wreckers yesterday morning. The most I could get for her was a measly $50, so to honour her memory we took my new car down to The Strand and spent that $50 on a delicious lunch. I actually teared up a little bit the other night while I was cleaning my old car out. That little beast supported me all the way through Uni, helped B out back when he was working night shifts as a med student, survived a couple of car crashes, and even managed to get our little family up here to Townsville in the middle of Summer. She may have been 22 years old and ready to go to car heaven, but I loved that beast, and I will never forget my first little car and will always be thankful for our time together.

Tell me about your first car. Was she an old bomb like mine was? Or was she shiny and new?

Do you remember that incredible feeling you had the day you brought your first proper 'new' car home?

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